Her view was mostly of his back
He was far too busy to notice, especially her
When pointed out, he walked away from her
Communication was his weakest link
The emotional abandonment was suffocating and humiliating for her
Being ignored was the worst empty feeling of all
She felt alone and excluded, yet she was with him
The sting of emotional betrayal was overwhelming and nauseating
How could this be happening after everything she gave him
Gone was her independence and confidence during those years
Sadly her efforts to impress went unnoticed
Yet somehow he still benefited from the results
Her head hurt from banging it against the wall
Begging for his attention
She felt she didn’t exist and unimportant, at least with him
Schedules, impressions, ego were his priorities
Invitations elsewhere were taken with pleasure
Decided and enjoyed, leaving her behind
She felt she didn’t have a choice which took away her voice
Until one day a job opportunity came for her in a faraway land
An opportunity not just for her but for the family
To be treated like a queen and highly rewarded for all her hard work
He encouraged her to pursue this adventure
The spotlight had shifted from him to her
It was finally her turn to do more, have more
The law of divine compensation was at play
However, seething jealousy swept in
Robbed her of this happiness, this chance of a lifetime
What did he do?
He backed out, refusing this opportunity for himself
Advised her to go alone
His world was far too important to leave behind and support her in this quest
These foolish games were killing her and them
She was so tired of feeling alone
Betrayal came in many forms and shattered her heart one crack at a time
His jealousy and control were building daily over her
That’s when everything changed…
She realized this was not about her but all about him
Like all the other times he abandoned her
And then…. it happened, the day after Valentine’s
A hurling punch of ultimate betrayal slapped her across the face with brute force
Causing physical, emotional, intellectual and spiritual harm to her body and soul
He took away Everything from her world
Her cracked heart was broken, bleeding and wailing
The invisible crown she wore fell, and crashed into a wall
Jewels she collected over the years shattered into a million pieces
Lifelessly falling to the floor, she tried to pick them one by one
Screaming, reaching and crying a river of tears
Every act of control on his part felt like she was being strangled tighter and tighter
He was kicking her while she was down; the pain was excruciating
She was unable to get off this emotional roller coaster ride
And it was sucking the life out of her
Her world was rapidly spinning out of control into a downward tornado spiral
She knew this was the end but failed to realize
It was also her new beginning…
Gradually, she picked herself off the floor
Had no idea she was in the driver’s seat
She could finally break free and live her life the way it was intended
With people who care and make time for her in their busy schedule
And don’t take advantage of her good nature
Friends and family gathered round, carried her when she couldn’t walk
Resisted sleep all night until sunrise; stayed and talked with her
Buried the darkness when she needed the light
Spoke for her when she couldn’t speak
Listened when she finally found her voice and the words
Dried her tears when they wouldn’t stop flowing
Made her laugh and smile to cut through the pain
Encouraged her to shake and pound it out through exercise
Books, quotes and songs repaired her soul one phrase at a time
Hugs and virtual hugs meant everything to her
Friends and family became her strength, her lifeline, her everything
Standing by her side through every mind controlling appointment and conversation
Taking her shopping and moving her into her new palace
Helping to re-attach the shining jewels to her invisible crown
And wearing it like a boss knowing she’s worth it, dammit
While carrying on courageously and not missing a beat in her life
Rising strong like a hero and not a poor victim
Pouring out her emotions and detoxifying her soul through writing
Connecting with more friends around the world that inspire and support her
Skype, Hangouts, texts and social media bring friends who are far, close to her heart
She doesn’t feel alone or ignored anymore, she is smiling
Her heart and mind are open, she can breathe again
Finally she disembarks this wild emotional roller coaster ride
Thanking her guardian angels for riding along side with her
This girl is on fire now and has her strength back and more
She walks into the appointment with her pen in hand
Signs the document that changes her life forever and for the better
Her inked signature says it all loud and clear
It’s finally over.
And this time…
She walks away with her back to him for the very first time
And rocks it
** A special thanks to Darshith for letting me borrow his awesome idea of adding music to my blog 😉 **Thank you** 🙂 Since this post has a before and after, I chose two songs; Foolish Games by Jewel and Brand New Me by Alicia Keys. Thank you for reading and listening, I know it was long but I just had to get it all out, turn my back, close the door, walk away and move on. Enjoy the music…Life is beautiful. We’re all human.
Love, Thanks and Hugs to You,
Jennifer
xo
Congratulations Superwoman.. you’re an inspiration to all those who think that life has lost its charm when someone leaves you behind, alone and shattered. You’ve been through pain and your heart has survived betrayal.. You’re one of the most wonderful person I’ll ever know.. God bless you love.. Always there for you..
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Bhavya, I am overcome with emotion from reading your comment. ❤ Many thank you's to you. Getting through tough times in life is so much easier with great friends and support and you are definitely one of my lovely friends and cheerleaders! 😉 Thank you for being there all this time and we have lots to look forward to in the future! 🙂 God bless you too….xo
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Wish you good luck and lots of love babe.. see you soon
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Thank you honey bun 😉 see you soon for sure ❤
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I am so proud of you!
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A million thank you’s Sandra 🙂 ❤ Hope to see you soon
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This is so well written. Great job.
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Thank you for stopping by and reading Stacilys 🙂 I really appreciate it, hope you are doing well
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There are many things that I wanna say, but in one sentence I would like to say that IRS an end of a chapter but it’s not the end of the book .. Life is long with full of surprises…. and you being a supperoman you deserve a big congratulations… and we all have faith n trust in you that all success, happiness is waiting for you…
May god bless you…
Beparvah…
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Thank you for such a great comment Beparvah, I am happy to read your encouraging words. I’m focusing on the positive future now. 🙂 God bless you too
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You are always welcome 🙂
Thank you for being there always.. God will bless you in all possible way..
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🙂 🙂
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Ironically, I found your writing to be quite melodic so when you mentioned that you added music to your blog, I had to do a double-take. This is an incredible piece of work! Dear brave, courageous lady, thank you for sharing so much with us. “The journey continues…” indeed. 😉
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Thank you for your beautiful comment about my writing being melodic ❤ and about being courageous!! I am very flattered. You bet the journey continues…. 😉
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When I started reading I thought it as fiction but as I proceeded I realized the words belonged to the soul writing this …After reading you I realized how tough times could be for people 😦 So when you have a partner who consider you as his center you are one lucky soul 🙂 And for you darling ❤ the tornado is over ..the rest is a smoothing sail 🙂 I am so proud of you 🙂 that you just not only overcame the hurdles life through at you but you are coaching people to pass their hurdles smoothly 🙂 Kudos for you darling ❤ Keep smiling like always 🙂 Blessing for you ❤
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NJ ❤ thank you so very much for this emotional comment. I love what you said about smooth sailing, I'm looking forward to that now. To be honest I think coaching has actually helped me in being able to deal with all this. I can see things with a different perspective and when I help others it makes me happier. I have great coaching friends too who have listened to me endlessly 🙂 I'm so happy we are connected and I wish that you get everything and more in life! ❤ God bless you NJ and thank you again 🙂
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I am happy that you are enjoying your this phase of life 🙂 Keep smiling dear 🙂 And thank you for the wishes 🙂 Bear hug for you ❤
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Thanks NJ, bear hug back to you too.. xo ❤
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I just noticed this place is absolutely beautiful
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Thank you very much Maestro, that is so kind of you for noticing 🙂 Positive emotions can make all the difference 🙂
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I was talking about the picture in the post. Its so lovely. Where is it?
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Oh! 😉 It’s in Ottawa, Canada area 🙂 Thank you
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It just happens to be on my list of places to visit from now. What a lovley view.
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Jen:
What a well written piece. Both Katy Lou and I were very touched when we read it. It took a lot of courage to share these feelings with the “world”. . . and for that I’m very proud of you. God Bless Dad
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Thanks Dad 🙂 Your ears have heard it all from me 😉 Thanks for listening to me go on and on 🙂
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Its just awesome jennifer : ) proud of you the way u have overcome, stay blessed and go ahead. Good Luck.
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Many thank you’s Atharva 🙂 You are so kind with your words 🙂 Moving ahead now 🙂
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thanks for the compliment, I want to see you reaching new milestones in life jennifer, stay strong and keep moving onn.
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I am so appreciative Atharva ❤ Thank you, your motivation certainly helps 🙂
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You are always welcome jennifer : ) stay blessed.
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🙂 🙂 You too
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You’re a great inspiration! 😻 God Bless you 😍
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Thank you so much Love, T for your comment. I really appreciate it ❤ God bless you too 🙂
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You had cut the river, you had bulit the bridge.. And now you’ve walked over it. Moving strong with a shine. 😊
For writing a comment, and reading what I’ve wrote, needs a lot of scrolling.. People have loved you so much and I can see especially the girl of whom you talk about, Bhavya
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The earlier comment got automatically posted without my words getting flooded! 😄 lol
So! Bhavya’s comment sums it all, Superwomen. 😉
Wishes for you! Rock the world, as you have always been rocking. There are many magic boxes around! Believe. 😊
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😉 that’s ok. Bhavya is so cute calling me this nick name all the time. I’m not sure how to live up to this title, it’s funny at times. Thank you though all the same 🙂 I’ll try and keep rocking, staying positive and believing 🙂 Thanks for reading my post and for your comments 🙂
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Thank you so much Ankit, I love the analogy of the bridge you gave. 🙂 I’ve had lots of love and support all along so I am very fortunate for that. Yes Bhavya is an amazing girl 🙂
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Thanks for agreeing with me Ankit.. Jen really is superwoman.. she’s awesome..
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Bhavya, you are too cute! ❤ Thank you so much from superwoman to supergirl! 😉
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and so are you..: )
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Will listen the songs tomorrow 🙂 Thank you for mentioning me in your post 😀 it’s not a copyrighted idea though 😛 I got the idea from Sonny 😉 Good that you’re out of the dark cave whose smell and aura you didn’t like.. Now as you’re out in the open and the world is all yours to conquer so go ahead and enjoy each bit of it 🙂 Sleep well and enjoy life Jenny 😉
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Darshith, thank you so much for reading and commenting on this post. 🙂 The music at the end is a nice touch and I’m glad I could use it. 🙂 Yes please listen to the songs when you can they just tie it all in. Out of the dark cave is a great way to put it and I look forward to what this open world has to offer in the future! 😀 You too sleep well 😉
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Yeah I will listen the songs & good luck for the time in open world 😉
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Thank you 🙂 my time in the open world is going to be awesome 🙂
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Yeah it will be 🙂
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🙂
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