Winning While Losing: The Upside of Heartbreak

Well, it’s been over a year since I started this journey of writing my first book.  Never in a million years did I think this dream would be happening or right around the corner, but it’s getting much closer to being complete!

As it stands right now, my publisher at FriesenPress is putting the final copyright touches on my book and pretty soon, it will be available through their online bookstore and by June, it will be available on every online platform worldwide!!!

I can’t even control my excitement, having my book released will be something meaningful for me because I managed to turn on a light while being in the dark, I flipped the negatives into positives, and my main goals were to heal myself while helping others in return 🙂

I am sharing a piece of the book cover in the above photo and I would also like to share the Preface from my book with all of you, just to give you a taste of what’s to come, very, very soon.  I hope you like it and once the book is out, I will pass on all the links to where you can find it.  I am planning a book launch and once it is organized I will give you the details on that as well.

Thank you so very much for all your true love and support ❤

 

Preface

As I wrote my book, I was inspired while reading By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept by Paulo Coelho.  Apparently, in his book, there is a legend where everything that falls into the waters of this river is transformed into the rocks that make the riverbed.  When you write out your feelings, it is the pen that shoots flames onto paper and bleeds from your soul.  Once it is written, it is tossed into the cold water to extinguish those flames and take away your suffering.  All of my tears and pain could be let go of and washed away by performing this beautiful gesture in a river close to my home.  All I had to do was finish writing my book and head down to the riverbank which is exactly what I did on a cool October afternoon.   As a symbol and blessing to myself, I tossed a copy of my flaming and bleeding manuscript into the frigid waters to extinguish my lingering suffering and have it washed far away.  As tears rolled down my cold cheeks into the river, I saw the manuscript flow with the current, and I imagined it turning to stone sinking far from here, becoming another rock at the bottom of the riverbed.  In that very moment, I suddenly felt the chill in the air, I released everything and let go, and the bleeding in my heart finally stopped.

My name is Jennifer Green and this is my story of how I dealt with my separation and divorce and how I overcame adversity by self-reflection and found the silver linings in my crumbling life events.  It’s not a book of venting or blaming.  It’s about my journey to recovery, accepting my own responsibilities and how I kept a positive outlook and learned some life lessons while living through the most difficult time of my life.  For every chapter I have written in this book during 2016, I am including a blog I wrote on my website in real time with the real emotion of what I was going through in 2015 and 2016.  Therefore, these chapters are the real and personal stories behind the blogs I wrote, alongside my reflections now.

We all fall down in life and I admit I have fallen many times which is painful and hurts so much.  It’s normal to stay down for a while but eventually, you need to get back up and face reality.  This requires some action steps and commitment. But for some, this is where the rubber fails to hit the road.  They may know what they need to do but they can’t even begin to even try.  I know how hard that is because there were times I felt the same way, but I realized that by keeping an open mind and open heart I may fall again and what’s important is finding the strength to keep rising with an incredible support system.

If you’ve ever had a relationship end in a traumatic way and change your world or if you are in the middle of one right now, rest assured you are not alone, I can sympathize and empathize with you and I am by your side.

We can walk through this together.

Thank you so much for joining me on my journey and welcome to my world.

~Jennifer Green

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Saw You

I saw you this morning as you walked by the reflection on the wall

I saw your hair was a little messed up but that’s normal for you these days

I saw you stop and gaze at me for a few seconds; expressionless

Just when you thought you could get by without noticing me

I saw you smiling back, even though sadness blankets you daily

I saw the creases at the outer corner of your eyes are getting a little deeper

I saw the two lines on your forehead for the first time in my life

Where did they come from?  Perhaps too much emotion

Happiness, sadness, anger or pain…

I saw the way you held back the tears when you heard songs on your playlist

I saw you cry yourself to sleep at night wondering how you would get through tomorrow

I saw you hiding, hoping nobody would find you

The guilt and shame was killing you one crack at a time

I saw you writing letters you would never send or publish for a soul to read

I saw you searching feverishly for quotes that lifted your spirit

Even if they only lifted you for a few minutes, it was all worth it

I saw you leaning on your kids who held you upright every day

I saw you praying hard for strength to carry on when you felt like giving up

I saw you being grateful that life was too short

 

I saw you crash.

 

Then, I saw you again….

About two years later, you looked different

This time, I saw you walk by your reflection and you stopped to notice me

I saw you practicing self-care, now it’s your turn

I saw your new hairdo, it really suits you

I saw your genuine smile return, red lipstick makes your smile even brighter

I saw you being proud of your fine lines and wrinkles, you earned every single one of them

I saw you singing and dancing as you exercised the stress away

I saw you sleeping like a baby; you finally look peaceful at night

I saw you traveling to near and far places, having a grand time with people

I saw your self-confidence return, this is so fantastic

I saw you preparing for your future, not just yours but also for your kids

I saw you write a book that comes directly from your gut, heart, and soul

One that can help others get through hell just like you did

I saw you sharing and posting quotes that inspired you and others

I saw you and your kids holding onto each other with full support all around

I saw your prayers being answered one by one, in mysterious ways nobody else knows

And witnessed the most beautiful spiritual transformation in my life

I saw you being grateful for being alive

I saw you rise…

And for everything you’ve been through

I’m so grateful I saw you…

 

Much Love ❤

Jen

 

**P.S:  BIG NEWS!  I am so excited and proud to announce that my book Winning While Losing:  The Upside of Heartbreak, is due to be released in May 2017!  Just an FYI, I will be going by the author name of Jennifer Green, which is my maiden name and who I’ve been all along.  I will be posting little sneak peaks from my book until then and I would like to thank you ALL so much for your love, support, and undying patience with me.  Everything is going well with the publishing side of things and finally with me personally and professionally.   It’s been quite the journey and it’s not over yet, I’m so grateful to have all of you with me.

Lots of love to YOU!

XOXOXO