I Saw You

I saw you this morning as you walked by the reflection on the wall

I saw your hair was a little messed up but that’s normal for you these days

I saw you stop and gaze at me for a few seconds; expressionless

Just when you thought you could get by without noticing me

I saw you smiling back, even though sadness blankets you daily

I saw the creases at the outer corner of your eyes are getting a little deeper

I saw the two lines on your forehead for the first time in my life

Where did they come from?  Perhaps too much emotion

Happiness, sadness, anger or pain…

I saw the way you held back the tears when you heard songs on your playlist

I saw you cry yourself to sleep at night wondering how you would get through tomorrow

I saw you hiding, hoping nobody would find you

The guilt and shame was killing you one crack at a time

I saw you writing letters you would never send or publish for a soul to read

I saw you searching feverishly for quotes that lifted your spirit

Even if they only lifted you for a few minutes, it was all worth it

I saw you leaning on your kids who held you upright every day

I saw you praying hard for strength to carry on when you felt like giving up

I saw you being grateful that life was too short

 

I saw you crash.

 

Then, I saw you again….

About two years later, you looked different

This time, I saw you walk by your reflection and you stopped to notice me

I saw you practicing self-care, now it’s your turn

I saw your new hairdo, it really suits you

I saw your genuine smile return, red lipstick makes your smile even brighter

I saw you being proud of your fine lines and wrinkles, you earned every single one of them

I saw you singing and dancing as you exercised the stress away

I saw you sleeping like a baby; you finally look peaceful at night

I saw you traveling to near and far places, having a grand time with people

I saw your self-confidence return, this is so fantastic

I saw you preparing for your future, not just yours but also for your kids

I saw you write a book that comes directly from your gut, heart, and soul

One that can help others get through hell just like you did

I saw you sharing and posting quotes that inspired you and others

I saw you and your kids holding onto each other with full support all around

I saw your prayers being answered one by one, in mysterious ways nobody else knows

And witnessed the most beautiful spiritual transformation in my life

I saw you being grateful for being alive

I saw you rise…

And for everything you’ve been through

I’m so grateful I saw you…

 

Much Love ❤

Jen

 

**P.S:  BIG NEWS!  I am so excited and proud to announce that my book Winning While Losing:  The Upside of Heartbreak, is due to be released in May 2017!  Just an FYI, I will be going by the author name of Jennifer Green, which is my maiden name and who I’ve been all along.  I will be posting little sneak peaks from my book until then and I would like to thank you ALL so much for your love, support, and undying patience with me.  Everything is going well with the publishing side of things and finally with me personally and professionally.   It’s been quite the journey and it’s not over yet, I’m so grateful to have all of you with me.

Lots of love to YOU!

XOXOXO