Some days I wake up energized and ready to take on the world
Other days I feel like hiding under the covers and don’t have the motivation to do anything
Some days I am flying high with excitement because my book is doing great
Other days I don’t feel like talking about it because I just want to forget all the bad stuff
Some days I feel so connected to people and I am in a beautiful state of flow
Other days I feel very disconnected from everyone and can’t understand why
Some days I have so much confidence I surprise my old self
Other days I feel like I doubt any decision I make, no matter how logical it is
Some days I feel like the emotional roller coaster has finally ended
Other days I feel like I am screaming at the top of my lungs but nobody can hear me
Some days I just need to cry
Other days I just need to cry some more
Some days I feel like I am healed from the trauma I have been through
Other days I wonder when this will ever end
Some days I see simple acts of kindness with strangers I meet through my work
Other days I see anger and aggression leaking through social media and other sites
Some days I am compassionate with myself and I realize it’s ok to struggle in life. Just like the butterfly needs to flap its wings against the cocoon from the inside out so its wings will be strong when it is released into the world.
The only way out is through and every experience leads to the next; nothing is wasted. I have the ability to make good choices with positive people and that’s what I am trying to do.
Some days I feel like I’ve got this struggle under control
Other days I admit, the struggle is real…
Much Love ❤
Jen
XO
** As confusing as it may sound, every healing journey takes on a life of its own. Nothing makes sense but you have to live like it does.
If you are healing from something right now, just know you are not alone and you are going to fly one day too. In the meantime, I am reading a book called “In The Meantime” by Iyanla Vanzant and this is exactly where I’m at in my life.
My meantime…figuring things out so this might take a while.
Dare To Live Courageously... 
I was demoted from a team leader position in March and it took me awhile to get past it. The one thing I was grateful for is that I still had a job and that a roof was still going to be over my head and food on the table. Healing requires time and space. I have never been through a divorce but there is a greater loss there because a relationship was ending, changing. It’s good to figure out the present and past so you can make it through the future.
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Thank you so much for your kind words and for sharing your story Tony. I’m sorry to hear about what happened to you. Grieving any loss takes time and that’s good you were able to move on. I’ll continue to move forward too. Thanks for your support it’s great to have you here.
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This is beautiful and I can resonate with every single word. Thank you for sharing xx
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Thank you so much for visiting my blog Shelley and I’m really happy to know you connected with the words. Hugs to you as well XOXO 💖
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Oh my beautiful soul! Hope you’re fine. We all go through these phases of confusion every now and then. These experiences are what makes us strong and what makes us a butterfly 😍 you’re already one of the brightest, enigmatic butterfly yourself 😘 keep struggling, keep learning, but please don’t forget to keep smiling too.. I may read that book too 😉
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Darshith, thank you so much for your kind and uplifting words 💖 Its good to know we’re not alone and I’m doing my best everyday while smiling 😁 I think you would like this book too, I’ll keep you posted 😉
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I guess the things that are supposed to bring biggest comfort and solace to humans today has become biggest source of pain in most cases of human suffering. Human relationships!
Well written Jennifer. Keep inspiring!
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Thank you so much for your understanding and comment Arv. I just found your comment in my spam for some very strange reason, sorry for the late reply. What you said is so true. Hope things are going well at your end 🙂
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It happens, Jennifer! I’m okay, Jennifer. Thanks for asking and care! 🙂
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I just discovered i have General anxiety disorder, its nothing huge but it is a impact in my life. I pray for wellness!
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Welcome Lynette, and thank you for your lovely and brave comments. I hope things get better for you and I’m sure they will in time. We can both pray for wellness together ❤
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For awhile I have suffered from depression and anger over a demotion at work. I am just now coming out of it. Still things are a work in progress but I know what you are going through with loss and adjustments. Hang in there my friend.
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Thank you for being so open and brave enough to share your story here Tony. I’m sorry to hear about your demotion at work, any loss is hard and worth grieving. I hope things get better for you soon too my friend.
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